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Looking back. [18 Nov 2012|11:03pm]
Reading these old post make me laugh. Oh to be innocent and not have any responsibility. It's weird being able to look back at the person you once were. At the hopes and dreams you had. When boys where the only thing you really had to care about. Now it's bills, jobs, and being an adult. Don't get me wrong. I love my life. It scares me though. I have become something more than I ever dreamed of. I never meant for any of this to happen. Hell, I had no idea that I could be this. Now look at me. I'm 26. I'm going to be in the new york times and time out new york this week. I have an amazing life, amazing friends. I make good money, have a closet full of everything I really want. Okay, so I'm single. But honestly, it doesn't really bother me as much as I think it should. My life is so full of everything, there isn't time to wallow in something like that. He will come around. After reading this, I wish I could go back and tell the 18 year old me, the depressed, sad little girl, that everything will be okay. That all this hurt and pain will make you into a better person. I'm a survivor. I'm a strong, independent woman. And things are just starting for me.
it's spring.

i stole this from steph. [22 Jan 2009|10:41pm]
The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me!
My choice.
For you.

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:

- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year. No guarantees when, it will be a total surprise!
- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be poetry. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to repost this, and repost right away.
We can all make stuff and make someone's day a little bit brighter!
Don't respond if you aren't going to offer the same thing.
4 lets dance it's spring.

[25 May 2008|11:20pm]
i am moving to blogspot. sorry livejournal. i needed to start something new.

1 lets dance it's spring.

like ripping off a band-aide [21 Apr 2008|12:07am]
i can't sleep. okay. i realize it is only midnight and most 21 year old's do not go to bed at 11 pm every night like i do. but for me midnight is too late on a work night. but i can't seem to stop thinking. i packed my first box today. we have 10 days till we have to leave our apartment. in those 10 short days we have to pack, paint, and clean. and we are attending the ricky young show friday. i wonder when we will have time for all of this.

my interview is may 2nd. i really hope i get this job. i really hope i get any job really. i need something new and challenging. i am wasting my skills.

deep down i am hoping the faster i leave and the less drawn out this move is the less it will hurt. hopefully it will all go fast and the pain wont hit till after it is gone. goodbyes is nothing i should be good at but unfortunately i am.

but i want to be so much bigger than this place. and it is time for me to leave.
1 lets dance it's spring.

[09 Apr 2008|09:27pm]
today was my one year at bread and company. i feel like i need a change. i want a new job. i just don't know where to go or what to do. ahh. help.
2 lets dance it's spring.

[22 Mar 2008|01:32am]
thank goodness for the few people in my life who are always there.
2 lets dance it's spring.

[10 Mar 2008|09:22pm]
i think i am going to stay in nashville one more year. and then next summer off to ireland for holly's wedding and my big european travel experience. i want to get a eurorail pass and join this group call servas. servas is this thing where you have to interview and then you get a list of approved host houses and you go stay in people's houses. ahh! i can't wait to make this happen.
2 lets dance it's spring.

[29 Feb 2008|03:34am]
nights like tonight are why i put up with work. and why i am not ready to leave nashville yet.

2008 = i love life!
it's spring.

avoiding finishing my taxes [22 Feb 2008|04:32pm]
when my brother came in town last weekend he brought me enough vitamin and smart water to last me for months.
and i still have a half a case of each of those smart waters left.
1 lets dance it's spring.

[14 Feb 2008|10:34pm]
awesome valentine's day. nothing special. just worked. (i don't want to talk about work anymore).
mary and i went shopping and ate and made vegan cupcakes and watched across the universe and drank francis coppola champagne named sofia. which i highly recommend. it is amazing.

i love life.
6 lets dance it's spring.

[13 Feb 2008|09:49pm]
what a weird past few days. weird weather. weird times at work. weird sleep. all around i wish i could take a big sleeping pill and hide in my bed for a while.

the weather needs to pick which season it is. i can't take much more of this cold/snowy one day and 50+ degrees the next. i vote for spring please!

i made the girl that i dont like at work cry again today. yes, this is the second time this week that i have made her cry. she just can't do anything right. and i don't have the energy to hold someones hand and teach them how to bake when they have already gone to pastry school and worked at disney world. thus i call he fat bitch. i was telling my mom the story how i made this girl cry on monday. my mother called me a bitch and then laughed. then she told me that i make her proud. man, i love my mom.

i haven't been sleeping well at all this week. every night i wake up at around 3 or 4 and i am really awake and then my legs start to ache and i can't get comfortable. and then the next thing i know i have to get up for work and my back will hurt even more than it did when i went to bed. plus crazy dreams are messing with me again.

i baked lemon sugar cookies tonight at home. and i need to make vegan cupcakes tomorrow and pizza dough friday. seems like i can't get enough of it!

who wants to be my valentine?
1 lets dance it's spring.

[07 Feb 2008|05:01am]
Everything is falling apart at work. And I have been trying all week to keep every thing together. And everything that is happening is out of my control but I feel like it is my fault. But people are just quiting and people are just not fast enough because that is who they are. But I just care so much. Because this is my life. This is what I have to care about. And this passion will either be a strength or my downfall in life. i also have not been hugged in about four days.not being hugged is one of the loneliest feelings. I just need someone to hold on to me and to tell me that it will be okay and that I should just let it go. On a night like tonight I wish I wasn't alone
8 lets dance it's spring.

[06 Feb 2008|08:49pm]
damn i wish i could go this year.
it's spring.

[05 Feb 2008|10:40pm]
i hate this weather. i get really freaked out when the word tornado is used anywhere. but we stayed in the hallway of my friends house during the first pass of storms and hopefully i will be asleep and nothing will happen for the second pass. i do not like storms while i am alone. stacy want to spoon tonight?
1 lets dance it's spring.

[04 Feb 2008|09:43pm]
i think i am in love with the city of chicago. i want to live there one day more than anything. i want to work at a fabulous restaurant and have an amazing life. it was so nice to see kristen and jake and chris again. it had been far too long. all in all my trip was exactly what i needed.

then i came back. and work is stressful again. and i worked 11 hours today. and bill have to be paid. and i just need some sleep. and i just want to get away again.

i really think i have a problem living places for more than a year now. although i really can't imagine leaving many of the wonderful people in my life. but one day i will. and i think everything will still be okay then.

i love law and order. i wish there was a law and order channel where it was on 24/7.
1 lets dance it's spring.

[01 Feb 2008|06:04pm]
There is so much snow here. I love it! And kristen is about to take me ice skating. Yay!
1 lets dance it's spring.

[28 Jan 2008|05:56pm]
i got my test results back today and i don't have cancer! yay!!
3 lets dance it's spring.

[19 Jan 2008|02:45am]
mikey's birthday party was tonight. it was fun. dancing and hanging out with friends.

i have the best roommate ever.

boys still suck. all around. someone needs to come around to prove me wrong soon or i may loose hope in all of them.

life is amazing.

yes, i am drunk.
1 lets dance it's spring.

[18 Jan 2008|03:16pm]
work has been unbelievably slow lately. because of that i started cooking and baking a whole lot more at home. i made dinner every night this week. and i really enjoyed it. for the longest time i thought i couldn't cook at all but now i think i am starting to get the hang of it. and i am in the process of making a pretty awesome birthday cake for tonight. it might be as awesome as steph's cake was last weekend. the next three weekends are going to be pretty awesome. mikey's birthday tonight. buddytown next weekend and CHICAGO the weekend after!

boy are retarded.

life is pretty great though. i have good friends. that's all i need.
2 lets dance it's spring.

[13 Jan 2008|10:43pm]
so i made tomato basil soup tonight for the week. and i have to say that is smells amazing. but i might have added too much butter. oh well, it still smells good. just thought everyone should know.
1 lets dance it's spring.

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